Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Date night Reflection.

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Yesterday was my first day back to work and it went pretty great. Everyone was happy to see me and I received so many hugs. I only cried twice so that was pretty good considering I cry easily. I wore a maxi skirt to work but unfortunately that proved to be a little difficult so today I’m in sweats; because my job is awesome and will allow me to wear comfortable clothing until I can wear my business casual attire. I want to thank you all for wishing me well on my first day because it worked!

I think I should disclose that my posts are going to be more about me reflecting on life. I am disclosing because I think many people won’t find these inspirational but currently it is all I am thinking about. I'm thinking about how life is so fragile and can be ripped away at any time. I keep on reflecting on how lucky/blessed I am and it is pretty hard to actually write about other things. I will be sure to mix it up with some fun things because I intend to live life but I am also at this point in life where I am thinking and mediating a lot. So now that, that’s out of the way …

It took some convincing on Sean's part to get me to do this. I worried about whether I'll be able to sit at the restaurant long enough to eat as any prolonged duration of sitting caused pain. Even standing straight caused pain so I worried whether I would be able to walk without limping. I worried about what to wear as I couldn't have anything compress my stomach and I didn't want my swollen leg to be visible. But I also wanted to be cute as I had been in sweat for two months.

I decided eventually that they were only worries and the only way I would know for sure was if I did it. I digged in my closet and found a black maxi and put on my white converses carefully. I even convinced myself to put on a little makeup which actually took some effort. It was a little crazy to put on makeup and realize that it takes effort to do so. It's something that I've never noticed and for the first time I was aware of how I used my body to apply makeup.

And although I didn't have Sean take pictures of me to document this day, I was thrilled to look in the mirror and see Faith staring back at me. Not the person that had been staring back at me for two months. I actually looked alive!

There is something about sitting down to eat at one of your favorite restaurants and realizing that you were given another chance to do it. I knew something was up when it did not bother me at all that our waiter forgot to give us salsa to go with our chips. It was like, it's OK. It's not the end of the world. When he came over we asked for salsa and he proceeded to apologize profusely. I reassured him not to worry about it because I meant it. After what I had gone through not having salsa with my chips was not a big deal. I was given another chance to have chips and salsa and appreciate just how good chips and salsa really is!

It's a little thing but I have to take note of how I handle the little things now that way I can handle the bigger things gracefully.

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And although I was not in tip-top shape and felt pangs of pain while eating, I honestly felt good.

18 comments:

Joy B. E. said...

I am so glad to see that you are getting back into your groove. And yes, sometimes, it takes big things to appreciate the little things. I've come to learn that sweating the small stuff really isn't good for our health. It causes more stress than necessary.
Hope your second day back at work was even more awesome!

Law_Fal said...

So glad your first day back went well. And kudos to your office for understanding and being lax with the dress code. That's truly awesome! I'm
Happy to read about your reflections. They are much needed reminders. We get so comfortable in the day to day that so much is taken for granted. Your experience has put so much in perspectives and it is a more than welcomed thing that I'm happy you are sharing with us.

CoastWithMe said...

Faith I read your last post about the doctor releasing you to go back to work. I'm soo happy to hear that your first day went well and you were able to enjoy a night out to dinner with your husband. You've made so much progress Faith. You continue to inspire all of us with your story. Here's to better and healthier days ahead! Lots of love girl! <3

Highly Favored said...

So happy to hear things are looking up for you on your path of recovery and health. Keep enjoying life and it truly is the little things that puts life in perspective.

Cece said...

What you went through has given you so much valuable perspective on life. It really did! That is an amazing thing. Reading your thoughts on all of this is another healthy reminder to me of how lucky I am just to be here. I fell in love with dresses after my surgery because that is all I could wear at first. Two years later, I'm still all dresses and skirts (usually with leggings!!)almost all the time at work. Glad your first day went well.

Melissa @ i carry your heart said...

Hopefully this is the first of many many successful date nights for you! Cheers!

Desiree Macke said...

It's so great to hear that your first day back at work was a good one! And super excited to hear (and see) you had a date night! Chips and salsa really are the bomb, and I'm so glad you are able to have them again and again!

Kathy C said...
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Kathy C said...

This post put a smile on my face. I can tell you're at a point in your life when you can only be grateful... and spend time looking at how meaningful life truly is. So glad to have you back alive and safe. Praying your recovery continues on the path of restoration. xoxo

Tomes Edition said...

I'm so happy to hear you are getting back in the groove of things. I hope everything goes to plan.

Maureen S. said...

Good for you getting out! It's so funny how life events can put things into perspective, like chips and salsa- lol. I've been telling myself the same thing when it comes to little messes here and there. Don't freak out! :)

DFS Picks said...

YAY for starting work again and YAY for date night. That food looks so yummy. So happy to see that you are back in business and feeling better.

I thought you were reading my mind when you said you didn't take any pictures to document :). Just glad to know you are doing much better and slowly adjusting to normal life again.

Eesh said...

Okay so I only cried once during this post!!

I'm so happy to see you getting back into the swing of things. I don't know what I would do without this little slice of heaven here on the interwebs. You've always been inspiring even if that wasn't the goal.

...and maxi dress & Converse? YASSSSSS!!!!

XO |EESH

Ashley R said...

This makes me happy. You are so strong girl! Lots of love to you xoxo

Emily Jane said...

" my posts are going to be more about me reflecting on life" <-- I love anything you write. I'm so glad you were cleared to go back to work. I know you've been antsy being home.

I'm glad that Sean also pushes/encourages you to do things. I love how you two seem to draw strength from one another. That's how marriage should be.

Nancy said...

I just love you, Faith!

Crystal said...

I appreciate your positivity so much! I am glad you enjoyed a nice date night out with your sweetie. May there be LOTS more of those in your future :)

Mrs JK said...

Faith! Wow! You are such strong amazing woman and I just can't wrap my head around what a dificult 2 months you had. I so very happy you are back ALIVE and on the road to a complete recovery. Your experience has been a real wake up call and reminder that tomorrow is not promised to us. Thank you for sharing and inspiring us.