Monday, October 13, 2014

32.

I’m 32 today. It feels strange to write that. Not that I don’t welcome getting older but that it is almost like I cannot believe that I am 32.
I feel like I just turned 18. In fact, I can remember it like it was yesterday.

14 years ago, I was a freshman in college and my roommate and I decided that in celebration of me finally turning 18 (joys of being an October baby) since she had already turned 18 in March, we were going to pierce our cartilages. We felt very legit when we handed our ID cards and the woman nodded her head. I finally did not need permission to pierce one of my body parts. To this day, I smile when I see my cartilage because of the excitement I felt that day. I think it was the most rebellious thing I had ever done at that point in my life. I remember feeling so excited that I don’t recall if I felt any pain. I also remember no one even noticing that I had done it when I went home for break and having to point it out, haha.

So the fact that I can say that I am 32 years old is a little baffling to me. But I am so grateful to say that with the grace of God I made it another year. Life has been up and down the last few months. Lots of emotions that I cannot control. Moments when I’m hit with feeling like I must be dreaming or in some nightmare because this all can’t be true. But it is. And I’m learning that I can only take it one day at a time.

I’m grateful for this life. I’m grateful for another year. I’m grateful for the lessons I have learnt to date and the lessons I will continue to learn.

This year I’m hoping for more. Hoping to do more with this life that I’ve been given. I hope to be more loving. More understanding. More hopeful. More prayerful.

But I’m also hoping for less. I’m hoping to be less afraid & less worried for the future.

I want to be able to let go and let God but most of all I’m just thankful for another year.

34 comments:

  1. Happy Birthday Faith & Amen to your prayers for this new year

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  2. Happy Birthday Faith!!! New year, new experiences. I hope it's nothing but the best for you!! :)

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  3. Happy Birthday!!! Hope it's fabulous!!!

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  4. Beautiful post... I love how you've reflected on your life. May God bless you this year and many more years to come. Happy Birthday!!!

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  5. Happy birthday! I just turned 31 and can't believe it, either. I wish you peace in the midst of the ups and downs, along with a meaningful year ahead.

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  6. And now I'm about to cry... My 32 has definitely been one filled with plenty ups and downs, but I've loved (almost) every minute of it. I hope yours is everything you hope it shall be! And now I shall get back into my emotions as this is where I have currently been the last few days! Ohh I got my ear pierced my freshman year too. A second hole in each ear and my mama was NOT pleased lol :)

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  7. Happy birthday!!! Cannot wait to hear more about this new house. Here's to more AND less :) Perfectly well said...like always!

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  8. Happy Happy Birthday!!! I feel way younger than I am, too. That must be a good thing!! Enjoy your day!

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  9. That's a great goal list! Happy bday beautiful lady!

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  10. Happy Birthday pretty lady! May this year find you new adventures and something else to look back on and feel excitement for.

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  11. Happy Birthday!!! May your days be filled with excitement and many blessings!

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  12. Happy Birthday!!! May your days be filled with excitement and many blessings!

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  13. Happy, Happy Birthday, my friend! I hope today, and this year are full of joy, laughter, and love!!

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  14. Happy Birthday, Faith! I love the story about the piercing.

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  15. Blessed Birth Anniversary Faith!! Praying you have many more healthy, joyful, and prosperous years ahead.

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  16. Happy Birthday Faith! Hope this is a stupendously blessed year for you! :)

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  17. Happy birthday! May the Lord bless you with a wonderful year filled with delightful surprises!

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  18. Happy Birthday!! Here's wishing you many, many more. Enjoy each day cause life goes so fast.

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  19. Happy birthday lovely Faith!! I pray that you have a wonderful 32! :-D

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  20. lovely blog :)
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  21. Happy Birthday!!!! Wishing you many, many, many more years to come!

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  22. Hope you enjoyed some fun Birthday stuff over the weekend and more to come!! Happy Birthday. You are still a young spring chicken!!

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  23. Aw! Happy belated birthday Faith! How exciting!! You definitely do not look like you're even in your 30's! You're making it look like the decade to look forward too. Hope you had a very special day! Wishing you many more!!

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  24. Happy birthday gorgeous!! Hope you had a great day. I wish you many many more. 32 is coming for me as well and girl. I still feel 22 (cues up Taylor Swift song)

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  25. Happy Belated Birthday!

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  26. Happy Birthday Faith! Hope you had a wonderful day. Cheers to 32 more wonderful years

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  27. happy birthday!!! and thanks for sharing such an inspiring message with all of us on your special day. i know so many people can relate.

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  28. Happy 32nd birthday lady, I know exactly what you mean, when did we get so much older and how come that we feel so young?

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  29. You don't look a day over 25! Happy Birthday!!! I hope you had an awesomely blessed day.

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  30. Happy Birthday Doll! You story reminds me of my freshman year in college when my room mates and I decided to go get body piercings on a whim! I pierced my labret. Enjoy your day!

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  31. "I can only take it one day at a time" -- that is very true. Though I'm very sorry for the bad, I hope you celebrated your birthday joyfully anyway. <3. Happy 32 years Faith.

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  32. So very well written, as always. And HAPPY late BIRTHDAY Faith!!

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