Yeah, I think I'll go with the positives, it does not make me ugly cry.

I’m embracing this unemployment season. It was very hard and it is still very hard. It is hard applying and applying and applying and feeling like the right job is not going to come along or feeling like no one wants you. I continue to have to tell myself it is not that they don’t want you it is that they can only gather so much information on the type of employee you will be based on a cover letter or resume.

I had a phone interview on Monday and I got myself so worked up that when the time came I was a blubbering mess. I really, really want this job. I always know how to present myself but wow, I completely did not do that. I may or may not have ugly cried on Sean for 10 minutes. My sister Emma called right after. It was as if she knew that I just had a breakdown and Lord knows I needed my older sister. She knows just how to say the right things and I’m grateful that she called. And then a second after I got off the phone with my sister, my mom called! It was the strangest thing, it was as if they knew. I know it was a God thing so I won’t call it strange again.

Any who, I’ve been working on embracing this time and have started noting things that I was not able to do when I was working full time.

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I’m able to go to bed at whatever time I want. If 5 am is when I feel ready to sleep then 5 am it is.

Sleeping in is not only a weekend thing.

I don’t have to stop an episode on Netflix ... I have ALL day.

The gym. I don’t have to worry about being too tired to wake up at 5 am to go and I don’t have to worry about going to the gym after work because I’m too tired. I can go whenever I choose at whatever time works for me.

I can run errands whenever.

I have the time to make all my meals at home. Several meals at a time if I choose.

Walks with Izabella are not rushed. She wants to walk for an hour, let’s walk for an hour.

I don’t have to spend my weekends cleaning anymore. I have all week to do that.

I can sit outside and take as many pictures of the sun peaking through the leaves because I want to.

When Sean decides that he wants to grill during normal working hours, I’m there which means I get it while it's hot. (Sean works at nights, FYI)

There is so much more but I don’t want to brag because I would really rather have a job but since I don’t, I might as well note some positives.

I won’t be unemployed forever. My intense search for work will pay off. Until then, new episodes of Sons of Anarchy await me ;).








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