Tuesday, April 29, 2014

well, why don't you cry about it, saddlebags?

IMG_4579Wanna know something? Sean is going to be working in NJ in a couple of months as Amazon is opening a new distribution center. For two months (he left on Monday) he'll live in Texas (San Antonio and Dallas each for one month) for training. He'll come home some weekends and I'll try to visit him once or twice but obviously that has me feeling some type of way.

It's a great move up for his career and I'm thrilled for him, for us, but I was this.close to having a routine again. I'm such a child.

If I had not gotten a job then we would be moving to NJ but because I did we'll continue to live in PA but a little farther out that way the commute for Sean is not more than 60 miles. My commute will be about 25 miles and to be honest I should be a little annoyed with it but for some strange reason I'm not. Maybe because I laugh a little inside about how many miles Sean will have to be driving ;).

The fact that we have to research and find a new town, a new place to live, all over again is getting to me. Just when I really began to accept and like where I'm living now. I guess, I'm just tired of starting over. And now having the one person I really know in PA not be around the way I would like for the next two months. Like Sean would say, "well, why don't you cry about it, saddlebags?" Not sure where he got that but that saying always makes me laugh. Except for when I'm pissed.

I want our lives to be settled and I feel that for almost a year it has not been settled. Just change after change and I want to punch change in the face. I've always hated change but man, I'm so bad with it. Worst than I ever thought.

I'm sucking it up and trying to be a go with the small punches type of person, along with telling myself that in several months I'll be on the road to being settled once again.

But I'm having Sean sign a damn contract. We're done moving for a long while!
I say, Amazon, you can suck it. Too bad my husband really, really likes ya.

44 comments:

Katie said...

Ugh, I hate this is happening to you right now!!! I think the only thing you can do is try to stay positive and concentrate on the beautiful new job you have ;) I'll be thinking of you, friend!

Nylse Esahc said...

It is how you feel right now. Just go with it, even in all of this change there's some stability: you and Sean.

So just enjoy the ride.

Sharon said...

My nephew just found out that his wife is being deployed to Guantanamo for six months beginning in October. Last time she was deployed, it was to Afghanistan. He's sad that she's going to be gone during the holidays...they have 2 little boys.

Discovery Street said...

This might be the best move yet...Everything happens for a reason!

Pegster said...

OMG, are you kidding me right now. I am happy for Sean but Amazon stop moving him around.

I am sure it's going to be beneficial to you guys somehow so just hang in there.

Eesh said...

In God's time :) you'll see. ❤

xo

Life with J and J said...

You are an awesome and supportive wife! I know it is a bit of a pain right now but things will definitely settle soon.

Just think of all the new restaurants you can visit and blog about? AND all the awesome pics you get to take in your new location. You can fantasize about being a part-time traveling photographer! That's one way to look at it :-).

Hang in there.

Kristen said...

I'm so sorry. :( I hope you'll be able to go out and visit him! At least you have your job to keep you occupied now!

two birds said...

Oh man, I can't even imagine. That has got to be hard, especially when you're apart for so long. I hope this next change is the last (unpleasant) one for a long time.

Desiree Macke said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Routine is such a comforting thing. And, there's nothing worse than having a routine thrown to the wind.
I'm praying you two make a quick and seamless transition into this next phase of life!!

Kimberly Whittaker said...

Oh no. :( That's so hard. My husband used to travel a lot for work... 3 weeks without coming home... 8 weeks in Ohio... a few in Colorado... 4 weeks in Florida... It was a lot. BUT distance makes the heart grow fonder sometimes. Corny, I know. But you'll get through it, girlie. xo

Kimberly Whittaker said...

Ohhh! And I take the time away to schedule girl sleepovers... it made me feel less lonely. AND I went to the gym so I felt like I looked extra fabulous. :) *hugs*

Crystal said...

LMBO! O-M-G! Sean got that from Ace Ventura Pet Detective! :P As soon as I read your blog title, I immediately said the line myself as if I was Ace Ventura. LOL! I know, I'm an odd duck! :P

I feel for you having to be away from your hubby for 2 whole months. Before he was my husband, we lived a state away for a time during job/moving transition and it was awful! We saw each other most weekends, but it just... wasn't the same!

Hang in there lady!

Christelle said...

Holy smokes that's a lot of changes...I don't blame you at all for fighting it!! Praying that you settle quickly in new town!

AND...will you come visit him in TX??!! :)

Cece said...

So Annoying! And the timing is crazy. Why couldn't he have known that he had to switch locations prior to you FINALLY getting a job? But then you wouldn't have the one you do which hopefully is going to be perfect. Sorry about the commute for Sean (and you even though yours isn't as bad).

Maureen S. said...

Ugh- change only feels good, when we understand it. I'm really happy you have your job now, because it will give a little distraction from missing Sean. Visit each other and write each other surprise random notes/letters/emails- all that fun lovey-dovey stuff and the time will fly by- hopefully. Hug!

Heather said...

Oh, Faith, I'm so sorry you're going through this. I wish I had something helpful to say, but honestly, I would feel the exact same way you do. I guess all I can do is send you a giant virtual hug and let you know I'm thinking of you. Hugs!

Highly Favored said...

Oh Boy....I have a feeling something good is going to come of all this. There is a ending to this journey that is preparing you for something great.

cashanamusings said...

Ah...just think of it as a journey and how wonderful it will be at the end.

Tracedacious! said...

Girl, it does suck moving especially if you are settled in and then all of a sudden it's like bam! The only good thing about him being in Texas (good ole south) is the amazing steaks, bbq and true mexican food :) .. good luck to y'all on apartment/town hunting.

EmilyJane said...

Just remember, you hated apartment life anyway ;). At least all of the change are positive things. But I would feel completely overwhelmed as well and longing for a bit more normality. Moving is a pain in the ass even when you WANT to move- lol.

Angela K said...

Oh wow! That is some seriously tough news. Just when you were feeling settled! And to have Sean out of town so much; that's got to be rough. Feel free to vent whenever. It doesn't always have to be rainbows and glitter in the blogosphere. I'll be thinking of you!

Vett Vandiver said...

that is tough, but I know you both will manage and it will only make you stronger!!

Tomes Edition said...

Darn, so sorry to hear. Don't worry those 6 months will pass in no time. Your new job will keep you occupied in the time being.

Dee D said...

Oh no, isn't that life for you? I wish I could reach through this computer screen and give you a hug, girl.

Jess said...

I know how you feel. I had a husband, then I didnt. I had a house and now I dont. I just moved, and now I'm moving again. It wears you down!

Keshia Langevillier said...

love your pic!

Law_Fal said...

WOW! That's crazy, but the one thing I have kept telling myself is that thee is a lesson in the blessing. Change is so hard to deal with, its crazy because life seemed so mundane when we were younger but now it's like life can change so dramatically in a week, a year, sometimes evenin a day. I'm sure there is some kind of lesson in the blessing for you as well!!!

MorgHarpNich.com said...

I agree with Dee..I wish I could just reach through the screen and give you a hug. I know that has to be so, so hard! I'll be praying for you in this change

Georgina Castellucci said...

I cannot imagine how frustrating (not to mention tiring) this process is but in the long run it will be so great that you both put up with it!!! xo

Rod and Alex - aka: "Rolex" said...

Oh! Don't feel bad about venting...It must be really hard to move so many times. I think you're doing great! :)
Love that pic of the blossoms! So pretty!

Alicia Mackin said...

Oh that is frustrating. I hope you find a place you like just has much.

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Lauren W said...

Hope you guys can find a new house easily! I don't like change either - I don't think most do. Hopefully once you guys settle in, things will start to slow down!

Jennifer said...

That is SO frustrating! I think as women we need that feeling of consistency and security and a normal routine. We thrive there. Hoping another transition for you will be easier than you expect!

And if you come visit him while he's staying in San Antonio, we HAVE to meet up! I'll show you around and do all the fun touristy San Antonio things with you! (o:

Ashley R said...

Ugh. I am sorry! :( How frustrating.

Brittany said...

Oh Faith, I'm sorry! That has to be so frustrating. It sounds like a great opportunity for Sean, though. And hey, if you get to come visit Texas, we can finally meet!!! :) :)

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Morgan said...

Aw man.... :( I'm so sorry that this is happening. What a mess! It will be hard, but I think since you have your work and such it will keep you busy and hopefully the weeks will go by a little faster til he's back home again.

Maria said...

i'm so sorry to hear, and at the same time - congratulations to sean! but i definitely understand what you're saying adn feeling. ( i can relate in a different kind of way.)
i hope that these next few months go as smoothly as possible for the both of you, separately and together. you both are such strong, driven, loving people! it will all pay off! sending love!! xoxox

grace and gratitude said...

i can't even imagine how frustrating this whole situation must be for you and your hubby.
but perhaps, this will be one of those situations that when you look back at it, was the most amazing blessing.
hopefully.

:)
vanessa

Kathy C said...

It'll be ok Faith. I know it's frustrating and maybe a little scary but who knows what lies ahead.

Nikki said...

I am so sorry! I totally understand about moving and finding a new place and re-settling down. Sounds like you have a good grasp on everything. It will totally work out in the end! :)
xoxo,
Nikki at www.bedazzlesafterdark.com

GospelFab! Girl said...

I hope that you are not going to be too sad while he is gone. I am a believer that everything happens for a reason. You posted that you were settling there because you just got your job, but what if you started looking for jobs now in NJ before you get settled in another part of PA. who knows where it may lead? just a thought... if you don't want to move again - then yes, it is better that you get the shorter commute LOL. either way it will all work out. AND I am glad that you are thinking of little seans!

Laura Darling said...

What a bummer that you have to move again! I have a coworker whose fiance is working at the new amazon. If you have any questions about areas to live, I grew up around there - in PA though - and still live close! Just in case you have questions about the area!