Very sad week....

I can write about it now.

Last Wednesday, my sister in law went for her last appointment before she gave birth. She was due on the 8th. She was told last Wednesday that her daughter's heart was not beating and the doctors did not know how long the baby had gone without a heart beat. My mother in law called my husband and you could hear her sobbing through the phone. I look over at my husband in shock and mouth to him, "what's wrong"? You can see his eyes start to water and I just start to rub his back. It felt like he was on the phone forever and I finally started to understand what was going on. As soon as he mentioned my sister in laws name and heartbeat I knew. I just knew. When he got off the phone I hugged him. I told him that the doctors could be wrong and there could easily be an alive baby in there. I called my mom and we began to pray. The doctors scheduled for my sister in law to be induced the following day to give birth to her daughter.

No matter how hard we prayed, I guess God needed Iyanna.

We had the funeral on Tuesday and I just was a huge ball of mess. But I know I was not feeling anything like my sister in law and her boyfriend. It was heart wrenching to watch them cry and it was even worst to see the smallest casket I have ever seen in my life. I can't imagine carrying your child for the whole term and then it being snatched away from you at the last second. I just can't imagine.

I am just praying to God to give my husband's family strength and comfort to go through this really difficult time. I pray that no one else I know (including me) will ever have to go through something so heartbreaking.