Friday, April 29, 2016

Friday Morning Ramblings.

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- I, like a lot of people watched Beyoncé's, ” Lemonade”. I’ve gone back and forth on loving Beyonce and then giving her the side eye. I feel that this time around she used her platform to share that she is also fighting her own battles. That this stronger than thou woman also has her insecurities, fear and uncertainness. She showed us raw. Real. Anger, frustration, vulnerability and forgiveness. And I have to say that it was refreshing to see.

- Guys, I’m soooo excited about this. For the first time in over 4 months (maybe longer) I have a brunch date with Cinthia! After brunch we're taking a little road trip to a farmers' & flea market. Cinthia will be closing on her first home in less than one month so we're going to see if anything "speaks" to her. After that we're going to check out another farmers' market closer to where we live as it is the grand re-opening for the season and those are always so much fun. Health is so not overrated! When you can’t do the simplest things it’s amazing how once you can you treasure it so much. I have this deeper appreciation for life than I have ever had.

EDITED TO ADD: Cinthia had to cancel. Some personal stuff and I'm so sad. This is what happens when you get excited over something, ha. Well, I have a free Saturday now. What's a gal to do?

- I have to get bloodwork and ultrasounds done on my left leg this coming Monday. Then I’ll have a follow up appointment with my vascular doctor on the 9th to discuss what the ultrasound and bloodwork revealed. I’m a little nervous but my leg does feel better so I know if anything progress has been made. I just want to get it over with that way I just know.

- Mother’s Day is coming. I’m feeling a lot of apprehension and sadness. I still have not come to terms that my mom is gone. And in just 3 months it will be a year. I miss her so, so much that it hurts me every single day. I'm still waiting for the day when instead of sadness being the first feeling I feel when I think of her, that the feeling of joy due to great memories will be first.

I hope that you all have fabulous weekends! ♥

8 comments:

Laura Darling said...

That brunch date sounds fantastic! Have fun!! I hope you get good news at the doctor. Praying for you!

Emily Jane said...

I've never been a huge Beyonce fan. People all but worship the girl, I'm kinda like eh. She fine tho (no homo). LOL.

Congratulations to Cinthia! You two will have the best time, I'm sure she's missed your company just as much.

I feel that way about medical tests too. Don't worry, you're okay :)

Gives you a big hug. She loves you very much.

Nylse Esahc said...

This whole Beyonce thing - I felt it was a story she wanted to tell BUT not necessarily her story. As an artist you get to do that and leave people guessing.

I'm glad you're getting better!!! Enjoy the weekend.

I do hope over time Mother's Day will get better for you.

Pegster said...

Bummer about your canceled plans on Saturday, I guess you get a day of rest so that's not too bad.

I cannot even imagine how hard this Mother's Day is going to be for you and your family. I am just sending you lots of virtual hugs.

Lisa Denise said...

I am so sorry that you are going thru this diddicult time missing your Mum. It's perfectly natural to miss her. I miss my Dad everyday and his laughter.

Lisa x

Desiree Macke said...

I've yet to watch "Lemonade" but best believe I've been hearing ALL about it!
I'm bummed your lunch date was cancelled. I hope you fill your Saturday will all sorts of great things!
Sending you all the positivity as Mother's Day approaches.

Tomes Edition said...

Oh no but i know you'll find something to fill your day. Have a great weekend.

Law_Fal said...

I wish I lived closer! We would brunch so much that we would definitely need all the treadmill minutes possible :)